music is a spirit of certainity

2009-06-05T01:13:00.003+08:00

yesterday when i went to buy dinner, i heard the auntie ask, how's the plane that went missing anyone know what happened to them?
then one of the worker replied, all died because the plane fall into the sea.
my heart sank and i felt so heavy heart and heart pain.
my heart is asking, father, why would this happen to them, if i am one of them in the plane.....?
i can feel their pain when they struggle or much more worse, they know they may be dying. what's in their heart? father my heart is really heavy....i really felt that God, i need to really learn to treasure people more, the one i love i want to love to the max.
2012? isit really that year? i highly doubt it is, but who knows when will God come back?
u really do not know what's in my mind and in my heart....

2009-06-04T02:46:00.001+08:00

hey guys!reviving my blog wahahahahahaha!=p

2009-04-05T19:59:00.002+08:00

thank you Lord for speaking to me so much! i love emorning prayer meetings!
just pray that everyday would have morning prayer meetings!! or maybe, one month one time for a week!=)

2009-04-05T19:56:00.002+08:00

tomorrow is commonwealth military band's syf! all the best guys!
you guys were to be at least a Gold band!
heard that you all sounded better already just keep it up and everything will be fine!=)

2009-03-29T02:56:00.001+08:00

father forgive me, i will forget about the past and reach forward to those things which are ahead.
i miss you

2009-03-25T02:21:00.002+08:00

Father God, my burden you lifted up, my heart you feel you, my vision you see it,
there's nothing in this world you not know from me.
God teach me your way, show me your ways.
help me guide me. i love your presence God!=)

easter is coming! anyone interested to join me this day a special day!
pls contact me!=)

2009-03-20T01:25:00.002+08:00

hey! the zone camp were simply wonderful!=)
learnt so much!
it's about building relationships...this leads me back to a story during cel group about aaron jones if i did remember correctly.
one day a lady tyre broke down at a middle of nowhere and were panicking.
she do not know what to do. were trying to look for the number for (forget what's that called, someone who will come and bring the car away lol) ya then got one man appeared.
his dressing were brokened, looking dull. she thought he's some robber.
but however he went up to her and said, mdm do you need some help?
so he offered his help to change the tyre for her.
the lady were awesomely greatful to him. he asked him for his name. he said i'm aaron jones.
he wanted to offer him some money and pay for him. he said mdm it's ok, if you want to thank me, just pass it on to the next person that you see.
she then drove her car to a restaurant for dinner.
when she went in a waitress came upon her with great smile and great attitude and welcome her.
the lady saw her pregnant about 7-8 months.(at this stage should stay at home)
she thought she probably in need of money.
the waitress served her well, then when the lady left the place, she left 200 or 300 hundred or even 400 i forgot lol! ya and a note says i was being helped by someone and he asked me to pass it on to the next person i saw. the pregnant lady were greatful..
the day she went home she went to her husband while her husband were sleeping and were in tears. she said to him softly, today when i was in work, someone gave me the amount of money. and this amount of money were able for me to use it for our baby and able to last of for a few months. i'm so thankful to her. i love aaron jones. then she went to sleep.
(roughly the story is about like this)(it's a true story btw)
so friends, build relationships with each other, when you do something great to one.
someday it will go one round back to you again.=)

2009-03-17T23:54:00.001+08:00

Deep down you're not a monster People just don't understand you You want to stay to yourself But the world is out to get you- my quiz answer to about myself.

just leave me alone is thaT alright?thanks

2009-03-17T23:18:00.002+08:00

father Lord, forgive me.
i'm not a good child of yours.
make me a better person a better leader..
recently i've lost all my happiness and smile..the band make me find back my past.
and my enjoyment.
father i want to get back into your presence, to experience your love again.
i'm feeling so dry and so drained. is it my fault that my usher is not doing well?
God i had tried so hard, so much to make them enjoy ushering, but yet i've failed.
father i am not a failure but would you tell me what to do and why is this thing happening to me?
am i just not a good leader at all?

2009-03-17T01:10:00.001+08:00

sometimes i really don't like 'busybodies'!can't you just mind your own business?

2009-03-17T01:06:00.002+08:00

wentback to band camp! and played with the band! i totally missed those days and the feelings inside of the band! so fun and so excited! i love to play music!!!
syf coming, i pray that the will at least get a gold! they improved! but not enough! sad thing is that the tuba alumni is more than the player themselves today!~haix they need to work hard arh!!!and i wanted to stay till we play finished the whole entire set piece but i no time, the last bus ending! how sad!=( nvm!!! all the best CMB!!!=)

2009-03-12T04:16:00.000+08:00

Your view on yourself:You are down-to-earth and people like you because you are so straightforward. You are an efficient problem solver because you will listen to both sides of an argument before making a decision that usually appeals to both parties.
The type of girlfriend/boyfriend you are looking for:You are a true romantic. When you are in love, you will do anything and everything to keep your love true.
Your readiness to commit to a relationship:You are ready to commit as soon as you meet the right person. And you believe you will pretty much know as soon as you might that person.
The seriousness of your love:You like to flirt and behave seductively. The opposite sex finds this very attractive, and that's why you'll always have admirers hanging off your arms. But how serious are you about choosing someone to be in a relationship with?
Your views on educationEducation is very important in life. You want to study hard and learn as much as you can.
The right job for you:You have plenty of dream jobs but have little chance of doing any of them if you don't focus on something in particular. You need to choose something and go for it to be happy and achieve success.
How do you view success:You are afraid of failure and scared to have a go at the career you would like to have in case you don't succeed. Don't give up when you haven't yet even started! Be courageous.
What are you most afraid of:You are afraid of having no one to rely on in times of trouble. You don't ever want to be unable to take care of yourself. Independence is important to you.
Who is your true self:You are mature, reasonable, honest and give good advice. People ask for your comments on all sorts of different issues. Sometimes you might find yourself in a dilemma when trapped with a problem, which your heart rather than your head needs to solve.

http://www.quizbox.com/personality/test82.aspx

2009-03-11T16:50:00.002+08:00

Mei li de shen hua what a beautiful song.
my future ding qing ge with my gf!=)

2009-03-10T05:55:00.001+08:00

frankly speaking i really in love with girls with specs!hahaha.
and i do not know why!
i just thought they were very good looking with specs.and all but most..

2009-03-10T05:53:00.002+08:00

hahahaha!woman gonna kill me! man only have one button on and off, female indeed too much buttons till people will be confused!haha

2009-03-06T15:05:00.002+08:00

The greatest king started out with a helpless baby!
The biggest forest had once been a small seed
The smallest hope will once develop into the greatest love!!

2009-03-06T01:59:00.004+08:00

Liu yi fei!!!she's totally awesomely cute and great and amazing! such a perfect and wonderful girl.she's my ideal girlfriend that i'm looking for!totally in love with her!

how cute and pretty she is! had an amazing charisma that attracts people!=)you are the second girl that makes me shy and heart beat pumps so fast!=D

2009-03-05T01:13:00.001+08:00

very long haven't fall sick already!
finally falling sick soon.
this feelingssss, at least drop my hyperness down so that i can be more serious..

2009-03-04T20:38:00.001+08:00

Oh God!i made a terribly silly blur mistake! someone from courts send a television to my house i saw the name mr Soh ... ... i thought is my uncle's name.i thought my uncle bought television for us and send to us.i called my dad he never answer then i accept it!
then they checked again they say wrong add!!!!! is 5th floor not 6th floor!
hahahaha!sooo embarrassing!=xxx

2009-03-04T00:37:00.002+08:00

the centre one is my cgl!!!!hahahhaa i was shocked when i saw her on friday!
she asked me to meet her and got something to show us. at first i thought were some important stuff but when i saw her, i was shocked and i knew what she wanted to show me! hahaha
her hair style changed ! congrats anyway for having 2nd for this hairstyle competition!=)

2009-03-03T23:54:00.002+08:00

had been thinking back about my past.
hannah frankly speaking i really missed you so much.
since you had found your happiness i will give you my blessings but keep in touch with me ok?
you are my first special girl, with all the special things we had done.=)
xiao xing xing, dui bu qi.

2009-03-03T01:17:00.002+08:00

Happy birthday to you amanda!!!!=))))))
i'm so sorry i really shy to sing to you!
soo! i will sing to you here!
Happy Birthday To You
Happy Birthday To You
Happy Birthday To panda!
Happy Birthday To you!=D
happy birthday panda! don't ask me call you and sing arh!
anddd i'm not having any sore throat though. haha and doc ivan is me!=)

2009-03-03T01:08:00.002+08:00

aiyooo! i guess i've eat too much hahaha!cannot must control myself!
let me post about sat service!
stage 2! as usual haha. every time duty no need to see allocation i will know my position straight away. but however i enjoyed doing stage 2 so much now!
especially when pst stephen and pst jeff webber were with me hahaha!
they are really great people. when i stand near to pst stephen, he's like a father to me.
eveytime so encouraging.=) thanks pst!
after svc i went to look for pst abraham to take back the interpretation set,
pst Kong walked towards me and i pointed behind him and said:"there pst Abraham is there" to my friend, pst Kong looked at me.=.= i pray that he do not think that i'm pointing at him.lol
saw my pri sch friend, she changed so much, and well maybe she don't recognise me anymore.=)
i will not show my pri sch photo!!! hahaha=)
i want a girl that will cook great food specially for me!=p
glutton boy!

2009-02-27T00:04:00.003+08:00

Oh man! i suddenly have craving for so many food!=)
i want a wife that can cook good food for me=p!
i suddenly feel like eating laksa, prata, mac, pizaa, kfc! hahahhahah yummmy!=)
maybe because almost everyday had been eating one meal only suddenly develop love for food!
and fruits strawberry!=)
cao mei xiao jie hahahahaha..from alex yiu! i still think quite funny but very cute!=)

2009-02-24T02:06:00.001+08:00

Ivan is hungry!he will fall for anyone who can cook good food for him!=)))DD
i love food, but i love the one will cook specially for me more!=)

2009-02-23T16:38:00.003+08:00

GPA is out!!!!i don't know why! i improved so much but yet my GPA grade only went up by 0.1
i guess is semester one affected my own grades.
semester 1:
2 B 3 B+ GPA = 3.3
semester 2
1 B 3 B+ 1 A = 3.4! overall
praise God i improved and i'm happy! =)

2009-02-18T02:37:00.001+08:00

you allow me to make my decision once again thanks!

2009-02-16T03:17:00.003+08:00

Valentine's Day were romantic especially i am sitting at the first row!=DDD
Happy Valentine's Day everyone!Next would be the
White Day!=) remember guys!
after service, i went back to logistic my friend told me someone is looking for an usher and is called cindy.
is that you cindy?
i want to know who u are.
=)
and i'm sorry my usher ends at 10.55p.m on sat!

2009-02-13T15:43:00.001+08:00

oh ya i wanted to say that, ytd i went for the evening PM,
on the way home i saw 2 kids! so cute!!!
oh my God! i really love kids so much!
but i'm not a pedophile!!!=)

2009-02-13T10:01:00.000+08:00

Enjoy the following ....
Praise be for ONE smart judge!!!
In Florida , an atheist created a case against the upcoming Easter andPassover Holy days.
He hired an attorney to bring a discrimination caseagainstChristians,
Jews and observances of their holy days.
The argument was thatit was unfair that atheists had no such recognized Days.
The case was brought before a judge.
After listening to the passionatePresentation by the lawyer,
the judge banged his gavel declaring,"CaseDismissed!
"The lawyer immediately stood objecting to the ruling saying,
"Your honor,How can you possibly dismiss this case?
The Christians have Christmas,Easter and others. The Jews have Passover,
Yom Kippur and Hanukkah,yet>My Client and all other atheists have no Such holidays.
"The judge leaned forward in his chair saying,
"But you do. Your client,Counsel, is woefully ignorant.
"The lawyer said, "Your Honor, we are unaware of any special observance Orholiday for atheists."The judge said,
"The calendar says April 1st is April Fools Day.
Psalm14:1 states, 'The fool says in his heart, there is no God.
'Thus, it is the opinion of this court, that if your client says there is noGod, Then he is a fool. Therefore, April 1st is his day. Court isadjourned.
This is too good not to forward.

=)

2009-02-13T10:00:00.000+08:00

went for Prayer meeting today in the morning at JW church
and going for the evening one too at riverwalk!!
JW PM were wonderful,great and too great that i do not know what word to use to describe my feelings!
so long since i had fall in the power of God!
first time!
My first Holy Laughter! i will remember this day the Lord had given me such a wonderful joy and peace to my heart mind and my spirit! thank you Lord!
I love you! =D

2009-02-13T09:00:00.000+08:00

I finally remembered what i wanted to say!
people usually says i fall in love, or fell in love..
but actually the person walk into love!
we need to know who we want to be with,
then we try to go into courtship with the person thus we walked into love..
i love you, so i walked into love for you!
some people subconciously know that they are attracted to someone, thus in this case we may say accidentally fall in love.but still the person may control.
however, many people walked into love, not really fall in love,
because love is full of joy and excitement!
able to share this love with your spouse,
able to share this joy with your partner
able to be with the one you love is just like bringing heaven to your heart,
so sweet and lovely! isn't that true!?
guys be more gentleman for this Valentine's Day,
and be generous, give to your spouse,
spread your affection to your wife or girlfriend,
be faithful, let her be happy.
i know many guys would agreed with me.
when their spouse is happy then they will be happy too!
Amen?=)
wife be more caring and concern and understanding to your husband and girlfriend be more
gentle to your boyfriend, let this day of loving and wonderful moment to spread around the world! =D Happy Valentine's Day!=D

2009-02-13T00:41:00.001+08:00

oh yaa! and guys remember!on 14th feb Valentine's Day if you do receive a gift!
On 14th march white day!(bai se qing ren jie) remember to give back tripple the gift.
some people says on the 14th feb u give a present for a person
on this 14th march if u do receive back a present from the person which means that person accepted u in courtship!=) jia you ba!

2009-02-12T16:35:00.000+08:00

ai yah!!! just now i've got alot of new thoughts wanted to write down but i've forgotten all!
siannn!!hahaha
hmmm..sat coming...excited?
for some poeple yes they do for me!?
normal lor!
everyday can be Valentine's Day if the couples are loving!
everyday is my birthday if i am happY!
if you're my girlfriend i'll make sure everyday is your birthday and Valentine's Day
which every day that u can be happy i will make it everyday your day!
haix i'm saying to myslef hahaha
sat i'll be super nice! sooooo nth la! ahahaha
=p also don't know who is reading my post! haha silly boy...

2009-02-11T23:44:00.000+08:00

In Japan, Valentine's Day is observed by females who present chocolate gifts (either store-bought or handmade),
usually to a male, as an expression of love.
The handmade chocolate is usually preferred by the receiver,
because it is a sign that the receiving male is the girl's "only one".
On White Day, the converse happens: males who received a "honmei-choco" [chocolate of love] or
"Giri-choco" [chocolate of courtesy] on Valentine's Day are expected to return the favor by giving gifts, usually more expensive.
Traditionally, popular White Day gifts are cookies, candies,
white chocolate, marshmallows as well as jewelry, lingerie, and stuffed animals.
Sometimes the term sanbai gaeshi (literally, "thrice the return")
is used to describe the generally recited rule that the return gift should be two to three times the cost of the Valentine's gift.

sooooo!!! i don't want a valentine gift on sat! and a date as well!!!=)
ask and you shall receive hahaha!=p

2009-02-11T16:57:00.000+08:00

I seriously need to look for a job!!! A job that can fix into cell group and church timing!
G0d help me plssss!!!!
today afternoon going for interview God pls let me pass it!!!!
Amen!!! yes! it shall be done according to my faith!=)

2009-02-11T00:36:00.000+08:00

some random post in my school this semester and ended on 23rd jan! hahaha not going to be in the same class as them...

2009-02-10T12:12:00.000+08:00

Ivan thinks that nothing in this world is impossible.
impossible = i'm possible.
sometimes negative words may sound bad, but yet if you interpret it in a positive way,
it is trying to encourage you.

haix, i regretted for my past, i hate it..
in this world all kinds of medicine there is,
only do not have regret medicine.
if i have time machine i want to ammend all my past!

Valentine's Day coming, anyone?
you ask and i will come..=)

2009-02-09T19:05:00.000+08:00

i've read all the post that you've postedsince 2005,
regretting what i've done to you that you had been so hurt by me..
i'm so sorry.
i was in a struggle as well that time.
but now it had became a past tense so do not let it to become a present tense or even the future tense ok?take care

2009-02-09T19:00:00.000+08:00

i don't know why..
recently had been getting more and more sentimental..
thinking about the past,
having so much regrets in life.
i want to stop regretting in life..let me put a stop to this
so from now on i want to treasure everyone in my life.
especially my love ones.
i want to say sorry to so many people for the hurts i've given to you all
i miss those days..
i cannot be self-fish..
i'm so glad you've found your love and you're happy.
stay this way ok?
take care of yourself..
miss..

2009-02-06T02:28:00.000+08:00

why am i so tired recently?
so down....
it's true that even when u gain the whole world and lose yourself is equivalent to you gain nothing.

2009-02-06T02:18:00.000+08:00

Farhan
Ivan- kids are like angel.the resurrection of my blog.haix..empty.let me be alone, RRRyan, Maw maw:

omg i thought shes still on pampers ?

Maw maw
Farhan, Ivan- kids are like angel.the resurrection of my blog.haix..empty.let me be alone, RRRyan:

hahaha blink?!!!

RRRyan
Farhan, Ivan- kids are like angel.the resurrection of my blog.haix..empty.let me be alone, Maw maw:

well?

Ivan- kids are like angel.the resurrection of my blog.haix..empty.let me be alone
Farhan, RRRyan, Maw maw:

gosh

Maw maw
Farhan, Ivan- kids are like angel.the resurrection of my blog.haix..empty.let me be alone, RRRyan:

u all super funny sia

RRRyan
Farhan, Ivan- kids are like angel.the resurrection of my blog.haix..empty.let me be alone, Maw maw:

why suddenly attack xx (cannot say who lol)

RRRyan
Farhan, Ivan- kids are like angel.the resurrection of my blog.haix..empty.let me be alone, Maw maw:
-_-

RRRyan
Farhan, Ivan- kids are like angel.the resurrection of my blog.haix..empty.let me be alone, Maw maw:

wtf

Maw maw
Farhan, Ivan- kids are like angel.the resurrection of my blog.haix..empty.let me be alone, RRRyan:

i am laughing while typing

Ivan- kids are like angel.the resurrection of my blog.haix..empty.let me be alone
Farhan, RRRyan, Maw maw:

u all let her see this converse

Farhan
Ivan- kids are like angel.the resurrection of my blog.haix..empty.let me be alone, RRRyan, Maw maw:

yeah and im like listening to poker face now.

RRRyan
Farhan, Ivan- kids are like angel.the resurrection of my blog.haix..empty.let me be alone, Maw maw:

lol

Farhan
Ivan- kids are like angel.the resurrection of my blog.haix..empty.let me be alone, RRRyan, Maw maw:

omg shes gonna slap u all

Maw maw
Farhan, Ivan- kids are like angel.the resurrection of my blog.haix..empty.let me be alone, RRRyan:

she will castrate all of u n de-breast me(lololololololololololol)

Farhan
Ivan- kids are like angel.the resurrection of my blog.haix..empty.let me be alone, RRRyan, Maw maw:

cnfrm

Maw maw
Farhan, Ivan- kids are like angel.the resurrection of my blog.haix..empty.let me be alone, RRRyan:
LOL

what a funny conversation!!hahahahhaa our secret loL!

2009-02-02T22:04:00.000+08:00

sometimes i really wonder everything i did is right or wrong.
father help me, i know it's my fault but still,
i lost the fire.
help me find back, the past that i am so excited for you,
but now, i am still excited serving you, but i don't know isit about the people in ministry?
haix. i really don't know what happened?
sometimes i felt so insecured,
wanting to talk to someone.but i always seems so fine, inside my heart i felt so ewempty.
leaders are human too, we feel something also.
i felt so discouraged.
God help me to pick up back again.
i miss the past, really hoped i can stop the time from moving, but
i know i shouldn't look back, so i will just have to move on.
my life is always full of colours, but am i the one who keep on trying to maintain it or isit
people around me to paint my life?

2009-01-30T00:34:00.000+08:00

hahahaha!trying to revivie my blog sooo! this is what happened throughout the november month to christmas then to end of year hahaha! yong xin liang ku le hope i still in time to save my blog hahahaha

BBQ

2008-12-23T00:14:00.000+08:00

aku sangat penat!
aku kengan kamu!!!faster come back!
today bbq with my sec school friends! were quite fun.
after so long got to meet up again, every seems the same never change..
got one guy having some christmas "clubbing" at the condo there
drunk and wanted a toast from us, he offered a glass of red wine!
we do not know what's inside the glass of wine so we did not take it,
he insisted us to drink with him, but we still reject, that moment was abit awkward.
one funny thing is my friend said we were underage! haha impossible
she wanted to say we're from secondary school! but she said we were from "security"
hahahaha!well, he was drunk, his friends pulled him away so it's still ok..
i guess the glass of wine should be no problem because his friend looked alright just wanted to see whether he do silly things or not.
overall still a good bbq.btw happy birthday timothy and kar yin!
see ya!

2008-10-01T15:06:00.000+08:00

Happy Children's Day! To all the kids on earth!=)this is the day that represent their child like heart, so pure and cute.
today went to help out children church at JW, knew quite number of new people.
especially clarissa. so cute and adorable girl.
i felt so in love with her when i saw her.i talked to her, she very shy!
i loooked into her eyes she will look into my eyes too!
her pure and innocent face is like an angel! really!
no doubt i just want to see her again and again.i hope next children's day event i will get to see her again.=)
the situation goes like this,
i was at the lift there, then ivy came over, and said:
"hey ivan, got one girl got lost"
me:"huh! how come" * bend down to clarissa
"girl how come you got lost, where's your teacher?"
clarissa:"i went to the toliet just now" in a super cute and sweet voice oh man!
me:"ok you wait here with jie jie first ok?"
then i went and run over the place to look for the children's church ic.
cannot find then i come back.
me:" girl how old are you?"
clarissa:" 4 yrs old."
me:" what's your name?"
clarissa:" clarissa" very soft and cute voice=)
me thinking:" ohhh man how sweet!!!!"
i touched her face with a omg she's so cute feelings haha
then i went to look around for another ic
the children church ic asked me to bring her down to B4.
so i went back. and brought her down.
after the service, i saw her again, so i approached her
me:" clarissa, follow teacher and don't get lost again ok?"
clarissa:" innocent look, nodding head.=)
ahhhh so cute and sweet!
she got a very big eyes and sweet face. she was actually playing with her friends then when i walked over she became shy! awww.how cute..love her so much!
i would really love my children in future so much i believe my wife will too!=)

2008-10-01T14:59:00.000+08:00

God! do you know how adorable they are?

everyone see!

oh man! i can't st
and it! father bless those kids! they are just gonna be great people in future!

today went for children church help out. i just love them so much!

at the end of everything, i was at rivera resting, very tired, but saw both of them lying beside the pool, so cute! i'm so melted.

how sweet and cute they are!

just feel like going over to them and play with them..i'm so gonna help out children church again!=)

2008-09-29T13:56:00.000+08:00

smile like you never had before=)
no one will know when your smile can brighten up other's life!
we live in an imperfect world, so if we keep on frowning isn't it contributing the sad world more?
so smile so that you can be a light that shine in the darkness
A heat the generates when people are cold.
=).this is smile so what is =D, i think means smile bigger.!
sorry girl, i wasn't thinking right, very tired i guess.forgive me ok=(.
great love is smile, greater love is full of joy! so smile more! =)

2008-09-29T10:07:00.000+08:00

Sat, went to help out in children church event,
i am de-activated already but i didn't know=.=
anyway helped out and the kids are very very very cute!!!
oh man! simply loves kids.
got one little boy held my hand, then i guess he's not comfortable about it because his hand is quite small,
soooo he held my index finger instead. so cute little boy.=)
well, i got sun burnt just simply standing under the sun directing the traffic.
the tanning is very uneven=\.
i think sat had just been great!the service were great, everything was just simply wonderful.
i love it=)
oh yes, in bs learnt that the 2nd coming of Jesus is very very near.(just a math calculating)
i just want to treasure every moment and do not want to waste anymore time.
cherish everyone around you.
Father we do not sure when is the 2nd coming of Jesus, but please let me live my life to the fullest.i thank you for everything you've put into my life,
it's simply just great and wonderful.

2008-09-29T09:03:00.000+08:00

Lying beside you
Here in the dark
Feeling your heartbeat
With mine
Softly you whisper
You're so sincere
How could our love
Be so blind
We sailed on together
We drifted apart
And here you are by my side

So now I come to you
With open arms
Nothing to hide
Believe what I saySo here I am
With open arms
Hoping you'll seeWhat your love means to me
Open arms
Living without you
Living alone
This empty house seems so cold
Wanting to hold you
Wanting you near
How much I wanted you home
And now that you've come back
Turned night into dayI need you to stay

2008-09-26T23:47:00.000+08:00

如果他不珍惜你，
我一定会。who got time machine can lend me.?
be more realistic ba.
我的关怀方式是你无法察觉的悲凉
只能在你不经意是才锁上我心房。
音乐里的旋律来自爱情的魔力更加美丽=)
为有得到真爱才能得到音乐的王者之魂。

2008-09-26T23:13:00.000+08:00

whether to be sad or happy it depends onyour heart.
but soemtimes your hert don't know what to tell you.
just go by your feelings.
跟着感觉走就对了。
最快乐的时候是在我认识你的那一个刹那。
我已经知道我是很==幸福了。
谢谢你。让我在说一次
我想你
也会爱着你。

2008-09-26T22:56:00.000+08:00

it's good to be like this..really.
sorry we really should stay a distance for now.
are u avoiding me? or should i say i'm sorry if i were to avoid u.
because... i don't know what to do for now. really don't know.forgive me

2008-09-26T22:18:00.000+08:00

i felt totally awkward and werid. i don't like this feeling. i just hope that this type of feelings should fade away soon. i'm glad you made your choice! that's what you should do and be on your choice ok? if we knew each other earlier. IF. do you think that we met is wrong? i don't know.should we? or shouldn't?father you always have your plan. i will follow, bring me up again.
be happy!
i will still say. when you're happy i will be too

2008-09-26T15:41:00.000+08:00

不管你的选择是什么
只要你开心我就开心。
你的笑容依然那么灿烂
可爱又美丽。
不要烦恼，不管怎么样我会陪在你身。
只要看到你的笑容就可以了=)

2008-09-26T12:40:00.000+08:00

I should be happy about this.atleast i know something.

I'm sorry, that's the reason why i wanted to avoid in the first place.

thanks!

2008-09-26T08:57:00.000+08:00

Am i doing the right thing?
i felt so bad. because it seems to be like i shouldn't be like this.
but it's just that only moment, even if it is once is a blessing to me.
that's why i need a time machine.

2008-09-25T11:59:00.000+08:00

why do i have doubts?
i really don't know!
i'm sorry, i shouldn't let all these thoughts come out of me.
i miss you girl.

2008-09-25T10:15:00.000+08:00

我真的不知道我该怎么办。我好想你，每天都情不自禁的在想念你。
这到底是对还是错。谁能告诉我。
对不起我不想这样的，我知道是不对的，但是我就是
好想念你。
不管怎么样
你开心我就开心。

2008-09-24T14:33:00.000+08:00

上帝我有点喘不过气,
但是我知道你在我的身边谢谢你！=)

2008-09-24T13:09:00.000+08:00

对不起，我知道我不应该这样，
距离一点或许是帮助吧。
答应我你一定要快乐，
因为你快乐我就快乐。

2008-09-24T12:44:00.000+08:00

i don't know whether isit right or wrong.
but one thing i know is. you happy i am happy too.
wo zhi dao gen zhe gan jue zou jiu dui le.
黑夜的转弯是白天
伤心的转弯是快乐
很多时候生命要给自己一个转弯会更快乐一点。

2008-09-24T12:10:00.000+08:00

I really don't know what i am thinking now.
God, you told me i could. but it's seems not the way it really were.
i really don't know what to do.would you help me God?
i really don't want to be in this way, but i couldn't help it.
Father, you promised me. i will hold on i believe in you always.
no matter what, i will still believe. am i doing right?
i will just remain there and see what you want me to do.
but i will wait.
i'm sorry Lord if i 've done wrong. guide me please.
sorry father i still trust in you.

Ivan's theory

2008-09-23T12:08:00.000+08:00

Smile and sadness leaves you.
Laugh and sadness run away from you!
In life there you be ups and downs.
If you can handle it well, it will be interesting like roller coaster.
sadness is just a contrast for happiness.
If sadness does not exist how do you experience happiness.
You wouldn't know what is happy.
Rainbow only appear after rain.
You need to have rain then you can see rainbow.
Smile deeply inside your heart,
no matter what you are still shinning.
the the light shine in you!
smile girl.

2008-09-23T10:41:00.000+08:00

Father, i put my trust in you. Believing you with all i can. Everything i ask in prayer, believing and i will receive. that is the promise of yours God.this will be held on forever till forevermore. Amen.

Sat service

2008-09-22T10:22:00.000+08:00

Sat, doing stage 2. very fun! haha!
the last time i did stage 2, is in a chaos, though is my first time doing.
sat is my 2nd time doing stage 2, from the start seems abit chaotic, but reaches the start of service,
everything wen into place.
Being right in the front of the stage is very good. the presence of the Lord is very strong!
when i focus, i felt him. is very smooth and great!
during sermon, time passes very fast, can focus better at the front even though i have to lift up my head to look at pastor haha neck tired.=x
the sermon is really great! we are the son and daughters not just a servant.
what can a son and daughter do, a servant may not do it.
we as the children will do without being told and we enjoy doing it for the house of the Lord! =)
after service did attendance at the start of doing it, with the help of hui erl but she went in for oscar.
i was left alone to do it! and is my first time doing it alone =.=!
Thank God hubert helped me when i don't know what to do!haha
Thanks Hubert! he even helped me to keep the com sets! so nice of him!
Hui erl inform me through coms that there are 101 late comers me and hubert heard 101 walk outs!then i com in and say!
"I had finished the attendance already but don't know where is the 101 walk out i have to put"
then i heard the oscar room got very loud laughter! then i know i had said something really wrong and funny! =.=! really is me! she say is 101 late comers not walk outs! aiyo!
ok, on the way home at 10.30p.m i called my section leader she told me i'm going take a new team in the section. Praise the Lord rising up is one of my vision!
i really prayed i that i can be a good team leader! =)
-ivan

cell group.

2008-09-22T10:03:00.000+08:00

Fri is some sort like a Discussion time.
Personally i really felt is quite good to have this session. everyone can share how they feel.
how we are supposed to do in order to make our cell group better.
I shared about how we are during the JW days.
I know we shouldn't be looking backwards as we have to move on to the future.
but as we move on, we need to be better, but if we didn't become better, we have to reflect back why in the past had been great.
remember in the days at JW, our cell group had been really bonded very close with each other.
usually after service, we will be at rivera. fellowshipping as a cell group.
at that moment everyone is very close with each other.
Now i feel that our cell had cliques more than as a cell.
After i've shared about this, we've decided to be as close as how we are in the past!
finally we had dinner together as a cell group after cell group meeting. how long have we not fellowship in this way already, 2 tables not enough to fill all the cell group members. getting the bonding back. and i really pray that we can be much better. =)

2008-09-22T09:58:00.000+08:00

Today is the 22nd sep, but i am going to blog about 8th sep hahaha!
first of all i am sorry for not blogging for very long. very lazy =xx
well! Now i have to thank everyone for the birthday greetings and presents.=)
i love it so much thank you guys!
Birthday is just another day. if you're happy, everyday is a birthday to you.
so people be happy and let everyday to be your special day alright =)

7th sep 08 work

2008-09-08T10:10:00.000+08:00

7th sep yeaterday worked at expo hall 3 as an usher for Thomas & friends event. very interesting! saw so many cute children with their parents. very fun hahaha. i'm doing as an usher to give out boost

er chair for the kids.we have limited booster seats but the parents so unreasonable. kept on asking from us and got angry. it is first come first serve basis. well forget it, it is the expo sistic fault not ushers fault. hey take a look at the little baby, very cute right! haha the baby is one of the kid that don't want to stay inside then the maid took the baby out. the parents stayed inside with another of their kid.so we entertain the kid hahahaha. then got one child went crying and come out. as an usher our job is not just usher people, but to make the kid laugh as well=.= so we make the kid stopped crying and he started to perform for us. then the mum say he is not coming to watch show but to perform himself. haha.that's for it worked for 2 session from 12.15 to 6, and i think i'm gonna get 48- 50 dollars.=)

New class w36C

2008-09-04T20:58:00.000+08:00

The new class is good! i can say not bad la the people there.
quite fun and exciting. the 2nd day of school it's already very noisy hahaha!
but there are some people whom i don't agree with how they work, but still love them!
16 weeks of school together with them! cannot be unhappy!
i want to lead a good and happy school life! enjoy my this 16 weeks with new classmates!=)
they are cool people=)

Really missed JW church!

2008-09-04T20:54:00.000+08:00

Last sun just went back JW for pst casey threat 2nd service,
i really missed there so much and the people over there..
i don't know why, but just have the urge to go back. not about being more convenient or what, but is about something within which cannot be descibed verbally.=(
i got some thoughts running in my mind now.....haiyo..
but i love ushering though it may be tough sometimes. sacrifices is the best worship to the Lord.
Charlie 2 this week!exciting, and challenging i prayed that God will guide me and help me!
first time doing it and cheif usher is 84!haha!
i will do well!=)

1st september!

2008-09-01T23:28:00.000+08:00

Today is the TRP outing, in the morning i met charmaine to pass her dictionary for her N level chinese, all the best btw!=).Not enough sleep recently yawnsss.
i meeting my RP friends at 2.30, so i went to the library to read books. I've recevied new revelation from God! i written it down.
here are some part of what i've got.
Faith is more than just a connector,faith is us that brings the connector to connect with God, connect with things that we want it to be done. without Faith, the connector is just connector not being plugged in. But! once you have faith, the connector will be moved by you to connect!
the connector is the grace given by God, thus By grace through Faith!
When we moves, God moves. when we have Faith, God's power will come into you.
Faith is a choice from you, thus you want to bring the grace of God into your life through faith or not is by your choice.
Everything in life God had given you opportunity and chances,
whether you take it or reject it, God gave you the freedom.
So i chose to believe and have Faith in life and in everything!
I believe as i have Faith and confess i will receive! Amen!

there is one part about leaderships.
As a leader we need to have Faith and set an example to our followers.
the leader fears, the follower will fear,
the leader fails, so will the follower.
just like David and the Goliath. David have the faith to overcome the giants.
David succeded then his followers chrage!
He have positive thinking and postive faith!
he did it through, positive thinking, actions then positive Faith!
"I can do ALL things through Christ who strengthens us!"
i can do is actions, All things! positive thinking, through Christ who strengthens us is positive Faith! so nothing in this world cannot be done! Have faith Amen! =)

TRP outing!

2008-09-01T23:16:00.000+08:00

these are the photos taken during TRP outing. supposed to have more people joining us, but last min some people back out. Still, it was still a fun day haha.

we went sakae sushi to eat! plates and plates piling up and we are super full! hahaha

breakfast lunch and dinner settled there=.=!

we went to star buck to chill, finally used up the voucher given by ashley!

hmm...there some more photos coming wait up!

Sun service in Jw with pst casey threat!

2008-08-31T23:35:00.000+08:00

I believe and blessed from today's sermon!
a continue of sat sermon!It had really changed my thoughts about have and making to grow stronger in my Faith level!
helpless = hopeless
Faith gives ----> grace and grace gives ====> hope!
Faith is the first of all first!
believing what you can have it and not wait till you see it then you believe!
that's Faith!
Today he talk about faith overcoming negatives of our life
and faith frames our future!
If we have Faith and a heart of believing, all negativeness will be gone from our life.
If we have Faith to believe what can happen in our life and future,
confess it and Believe it, it shall be done according to your Faith!
Thus Faith frames your future!
Friends reading this post, just want to encourage you, if you do have negativenesses in your life, why not trust and believe in God, and have Faith in yourself as well, that you can overcome all bad things in life! Confess with your mouth and do it! =)

Service one pst casey threat!

2008-08-31T23:29:00.000+08:00

Hey yesterday was pst casey threat sermon!
i was really being impacted by what he had preached!
really moved me so much and i've decided to attend the service on sun at JW church!
It is really great sermon!
He talked about Faith! without Faith we never please God!
By grace through Faith!
The just shall live by Faith!
It is Faith that connect us with God thus Faith is a connection!
Once we have Faith we can move.
As we move God moves!He sees the Faith inside of us and thus as we believe it shall be given onto you!
This is very true! Nothing is impossible through God.
As we believe and sees it! By Faith and confession, we can receive it!
On sat he preached on one part of it. So i decided to go on sun for 2nd and 3rd part=)

Service!

2008-08-31T23:20:00.001+08:00

Sat expo service 2 did recruitment for usher.
It wasn't really a fruitful one. Didn't recruit any member to join!
Why do everyone seems to be "dislike" usher so much?
hmmm! when we approach people to ask them to join usher ministry.
They showed a face which is like, "argh"ushers.
haha. Are we so dislikeable?
It is really hard to recruit people in.
Praise the Lord our church is growing, but yet!
we need more ushers to join to help to maintain the run of the service.
Imagine a day every ushers do not serve and let the congregation
to move themselves.
what would happen?
Chaosssss.!~.~
cannot imagine right! The people have to look for seats themselves,
make their own bulletins and lay it themselves.
offering they shall queue up to give at the reception there.
At the offering box! hohoho.
When it is overflow, they will have to carry chairs and lay themselves!haha!
Of course NOT! For this can never happen! So please join usher!=)
Support us! and please do not give trouble to the ushers ="(
Thank you!=p

Walau seribu rebah

2008-08-31T23:13:00.001+08:00

MERCIES THAT RISE WITH THE NEW MORN
SET ME APART AS A NEW BORN
EACH MOMENT I LIVE
BY FAITH I BELIEVE
WITH YOU I'M NEVER ALONE
DARKNESS MAY COME,TRIALS SEEM SO LONG
YOU ARE THE LIGHT I DEPEND ON
THROUGH VALLEYS AND STORMS
YOUR WORD KEEPS ME STRONG
MY SHELTER, REFUGE AND SONG I TRUST IN YOU
EVERYDAY I LIVE
I KNOW YOU ARE MY GOD
I LIFT MY FACE AND LOOK TO YOU MY LORD
EVEN WHEN THE MOUNTAINS TREMBLE
AND A THOUSAND FALL
I WILL STAND WITH YOU
MY JESUS
TAKE MY ALL

2008-08-28T23:23:00.000+08:00

Good day!
haha!don't really have the habit to blog but! i will try to blog now.
It seems to be writting RJ now! type type type. talking to myself!
Oh ya btw happy birthday Ms shyam! even though she won't see this hahaha!
Today went out with my 5/1 clique! very long never go out with them.
Farhan and arif not here! our f4 only f2 appear haha!
well, the murderer of the inugami clan not bad. is he jin tian yi's grandfather?
good detective please find out hahaha!
stay out late with the girls, but then! guys hang out with girls of cos priority is girls!
shop with them haha.
ok..then on my way home met my band junior! and miao ling asked me a random question.
that's it! bye! haha

2008-07-25T12:56:00.000+08:00

people like to tell others only one side of the story. only tell people what is not fair to them then in the end come up to the outcome that is the fault of the other one. do not blame others first and search yourself first.if you want to complain please tell the whole story about what you yourself have behaved and shown to others that others will react in this way back to you.
people around us are so hypocritical, no one can expect that this person will be truthful infront of you and later on back stab you.how sad.
love is meant to be the greatest on earth, but people are making it to seems to be the lowest on earth. everyone have emotions, but if you want to show it to others your own emotion, think twice. it's totally unfair to others. keep lying to yourself, don't work for yourself, kill yourself.

2008-06-18T11:34:00.000+08:00

Dear blog,
long time no see. hmm today were argh.tiring!oh man, the cognitive teacher really ....nothing to say man!so great right?she always forget our 2nd break out is 12:oop.m sharp.and she thought it was 12.30!we told her once and she still forget!always complain we're late for presentation!oh man! this sucks! ivan stop complaining! complain doesn't help! do some changes!
something we cannot change we change!oh man! i love this!so profound hahaha!=x later going to cwss pop!lol long time didn't see them!kind of missing them but i hope the pop turn out great! lol!see ya!

2008-06-01T01:47:00.000+08:00

there is a few very interesting things happened!=)

sat when i am on my way to church, there is a group of caucasian were came into the mrt one holding on to a can of coke. a uncle very interesting, he talked to the guy that is holding on to the can of coke and guess what he says." in mrt cannot drink later kana fine". i guess the caucasian understood him because he pointed to the no food and drink sign, and understood the word fine.haha, i wonder would the caucasian understand the word "kana" or "kena".hahaha so interesting.

then the uncle actually asked where are they from, and they are from new yoke!cool man a great country! haha.

then in church very interesting conversation. you very weird also, 21 years old inside a 17 years old shell!hahaha..

2008-05-29T11:11:00.000+08:00

one very funny thing happened. when i online, my friend suddenly ask,hey this your girl friend arh?

i replied, huh?who?

he said your dp.which is this picture.=.="

2008-05-27T12:37:00.000+08:00

hello blog,what can life be?
interesting topic.

2008-05-26T10:06:00.000+08:00

sometimes really thought of the importance of treasuring our own life, live a life that as if there's no tomorrow so as to live to the fullest. The earthquake that had happened in si chuan is really a heartach to see..
God this is my prayer to them:
God i believe the disaster is not from you, is from the inperfect world, the satan had created this disaster to kill people. God i pray that you will forgive the soul of the sinners cleanse them clean with the blood of jesus and they will be in heaven with you.those innocent people are your children, father in heaven, bless their soul and their spirit
Amen .

the school collapsed, kids died from it, lost of family members, such a heartach scence. many people had been complaining their life is so pathetic and lousy. some people wants to live a life but yet had been taken away, so people treasure your own life and those who is around u.

2008-05-21T11:07:00.000+08:00

Today cognitive lesson, i wonder why people always comment and criticise but yet they themselves were like this. people could give advice and help to others but yet they can't help themselves.why?

cognitive teacher always says that we have no time management, she herself have a more worst time management than us. but why?
seems so contradicting isn't that so?haha

forget about the lesson.nowadays seems so werid,i felt more and more sentimental, more and more feelings. i felt love, sympathy for the country which experienced disaster. really felt so sorry for them, it seems like the end of the world is coming but, there's still so many things i had not done. time is running out,i do not wish to waste any of the second. everytime we count down, we are counting to the end of world.haix..